You experience one setback after another after another. It's constant chaos; you are always recovering from the last setback. Before you're done, the next thing happens. It feels like you're not able to surface or have breathing room. There is no calm stretch where nothing happens. Or you may have calm stretches but you wonder when the next setback will occur.
You feel like you're being gaslighted. You may think it's your significant other because s/he after all is the only one with access to your stuff. Think again. Does your SO fit the profile of a pw?
Remember, the pw has a habit of framing people. By the way, it'll frustrate a pw to no end if you go about your life in a star-lit daze, oblivious to all the evidence of gas-lighting. Did I say star-lit daze? I meant starry daze. You could be a star anyway, what with the paparazzi recording your every move. You probably don't appreciate that you are one of the stars in the pw's life. You are at least a main character on the stage of it's mind, and in the sad personal drama it acts out. The latter is what this blog aims to get you completely out of and away from.
Strange or unusual things happen in the places you inhabit. This is different from the above in the sense that, in the above, you're well aware of what the abnormality is and the fact that it is quite abnormal. In this instance, events are unusual. Don't dismiss these. Document them. Again by document, pictures would be best but also document in writing. If these recur you may be on to something. Keep documentation on your phone. Which you're keeping with you at all times, right? If you're not putting it together, your subconscious will. Pay attention to your instincts and even dreams.
You find strange items in your house. Don't assume they belong to your SO or house guests. Find out. Take pictures. Document dates and circumstances surrounding unusual appearance of objects. If it could be an electronic device, take it apart and try to figure out what it is.
The truth goes around in circles.
Normally, lies and deception go around in circles. The truth is like a pinpoint of light. When you find the truth with regard to a circle of lies, you collapse the circle of lies and deception to a point. However, when you find the truth going around in circles, there's evil behind it. Only evil will drive the truth around in circles. In this case the truth is usually something unpleasant. Something you or someone else did, or something that happened. It never goes away, just resurfaces again and again carrying greater meaning each time.
People suddenly start acting strange around you or ask you strange questions or make unusual statements. Address this. Get to the heart of it.
When you tell the people close to you what's going on in your life and what you believe this person or someone has done or is doing to you, they question the state of your mind and your mental health. This includes people who have known you all your life and who think you're very intelligent. This can come as a shock and disappointment. You may even feel sickened by the people close to you who disbelieve you. Why would they act like this this? Do they have something against you? No. The reason is because they are like you. They've been brought up like you to believe the best of everyone, to give the benefit of doubt, to believe everyone is basically good. How long did it take you to figure out what's going on? Years? And you've been close to this person and didn't see it. They're not even close to the pw. It's much easier to believe someone has mental health issues caused by stress rather than that there is someone capable of this much evil. In a bittersweet and ironic way, this is a good thing, that people would rather believe in the goodness of humanity. But it doesn't make your life easy.
The other thing that makes it difficult to believe is that the criminal nature of the activities sound far fetched for one person to accomplish. On top of that, the contrast of the gaslighting activities alongside the criminal ones sounds ridiculous falling on the ears of a listener. The sociopath thrives because people prefer to believe nice easy explanations that match the capability of their brains to process. It's also too much work to delve deeply or thoroughly for anything else.
It is a surefire sign you're dealing with a sociopath/psychopath if, when you tell anyone who knows you well what you're experiencing, they question your sanity and mental heath or whether you're making it up. This is a two way street. You will find yourself questioning the intellectual competence of the people who question your sanity. At some point you may come decide that these people lack the interest, curiosity and quite possibly the logical reasoning capability, and are therefore too intellectually lazy to see what it is you see, given the same information.
I have seen a couple blogs where people who are gaslighted have been diagnosed with a mental disorder - bipolar or dementia, but they did figure it out eventually. Be careful not to take drugs for a condition you don't have.
I have seen a couple blogs where people who are gaslighted have been diagnosed with a mental disorder - bipolar or dementia, but they did figure it out eventually. Be careful not to take drugs for a condition you don't have.
I've been looking at people's blogs about their experiences. There seem to be quite a few who believe it was a matter of time before the pw killed them, and others feeling ready to give up. The pw probably isn't interested in killing you but it's quite possible it would like to drive you to commit suicide. That would make it's life easier and just imagine how much more powerful it would feel to think it had that level of control over someone.
The pw is an incomplete person, lacking some aspect of brain development or in some cases suffering from brain damage. You will not let a brain damaged pathetic wretch drive you to commit suicide. Furthermore, you are everything a pw is not. You're a kind, caring human being, creative, original, intelligent and empathetic, a light in this world. The pw is the antithesis of who you are. You must not let the darkness in this world extinguish a light.
Follow the steps I've outlined to regain your security and privacy. Lay a foundation for the pw to be caught in the future. If you get no support from family and friends, don't be discouraged, you can do this alone. Trust yourself and your instincts. You may find support online. There certainly seem to be many describing the same symptoms.
As you go through this process, continue taking care of yourself and doing the things you enjoy.
When you reach the place where you've done what you can to protect yourself, let something positive come from this - share your experiences so others who are going through the same or who will do so in the future know they are not alone. It is also important that those who have not undergone this type of experience know it's real.
Add any wisdom and insight you've gained to the collective so others might benefit. This is a big step in the direction of getting on with your life and getting back to the place you need to be.
You have only this life. So live it to the fullest and keep shining your light on the world!
